I can talk crap, have a fight, insult each other and literally be myself yet they still at my side.

I will never left anyone like that.

When i start to consider what people say, i tend to lose focus and not being myself. I hate that!

Laptop starts to make problem. I guess I will be away for few days due to the annoyance it has been making.

I guess I should start with getting back my figure.

I used to have this kind of mentality where I got my life stagnant. I am certainly will not want to have that kind of mentality anymore. I am tired of that. This is not what my parents want me to be. They have been working hard to pay for all the fees and expenses. I know that whatever they are trying to do are for my best interest.  I should not just waste my life like that.

I know that to just lay back and relax and not to think about the future are the nice thing to do than to confront the difficulties. But I don't see that as something beneficial towards my future. I guess I should not get too comfort.