Arghhhh... I feel like screaming now. Hope things will work out as they are and no more delay.

I just don't get it why people like to make other people's life difficult when they are just too lazy to work it out or just jealous of it. Not that they are OKU or disabled but just that they are lazy. That is the only reason.sigh.

I am really fine if we do sometimes have the day where we are laze to do anything. Not that we are perfect all the time I'm saying. But you don't have the right to make people's life difficult even you have the chance to do so when you can just do it by yourself.

For instance, if they have the fear to drive. Everyone has that fear when they started to drive. That not leave me an exception. You just have to encounter the feeling and practice A LOT to get used to the driving. Other people won't be your driver all the time unless you hire one.

I don't have to say everything that I know. I don't have to tell everything that I do. I don't have to be at my best all the time. I don't have to tell the reason for things that I do. Yet THEY still want me to be part of their lives and I know they are always there for me.

Their understanding, maturity and faithful for me really touch my heart. I certainly will not give up on them.

9.10.11

I just realised the date on my phone at 2.40am when I can't go to bed. Exhausted, tired, fatigue, burn out, weary are what I feel now.